On Self Esteem

Yesterday, I had a handful of hours to my laptop and I decided..what the heck, I will browse some blogs. The blogs of notes are not really that fabulous so I took my chances..(rarely but quite frequently...there I go again..contradiction abound) and read some recently updated blogs.

I came across one that really got me thinking about writing this post. There was a post in this individual's blog that really sounded low on the self esteem side. Her mother has really high expectations of her daughter and came down really hard on her (the way I read it, well..it gave me that impression) and wanted her daughter(this girl posting in the blog) to be as good as herself (talk about arrongance). Until her younger sister came. Constantly praising her younger daughter, she compares her with the elder..this girl until she had a bout and a really bad bout of low esteem.

When looking about us in our everyday lives, I found out that this is indeed not rare. A minority (or majority) of parents expect their son/daughter to be as good or in certain cases..surpass themselves in their lives. We cannot expect everyone to be perfect. While writing all these posts, one might think that I am quite a matured guy (well..actually I like writing..or in this case typing but I am not that kind of person..yet..ask my friends...) but my behaviour can vary. I used to compared to others last time but now, my parent is more tolerable and does not compare my sis and I to others...thus making me more fortunate...unlike some people I know.

All cases of low esteem and suicidal thoughts coming right after that little 'virus' does not always blossom from finicky people who like to compare and say we must change this, we must change that..be better than so-and-so or so on and so forth. Low esteem also comes from, in some of my friends' cases...'failure' in life. Failures can vary....from examination results (which leads to some parents comparing our marks to our better peers...which I am not excluded from) and 'love' lives to severe psychological disorders which I do not know so much about...but I do know if you have the feeling that you are being psychologically affected with low self esteem..i.e. those nervosa kinda stuff..i suggest you consult a phycisian.

All I know here is this:
Do not..I repeat...no...let me say this..never ever feel that you are not good enough for anything or anyone. Everyone has a purpose to be here on Earth...be it repopulate the Earth..haha...or helping someone...lending alms..whatever. Hell, you might even be put here for the sole purpose of just making someone happy...i.e. your parents or me :). God never makes junk, He makes masterpieces...its just that people cannot see that purpose in you until much later or you begin displaying true talent in something. Let me give you and example. I think Picasso's drawings are weird. They do not capture my attention. To me those kind of drawings are just abstract 'art'. But if I tried telling that to the next billionaire who bought a Picasso drawing..(I noticed something...when an artist dies...his work becomes more famous than he/she ever was..haha) he would have scoffed at me or spat..either way. I mean...who can ever appreciate a drawing like this:
Looks scary heh? I googled Picasso in the images link and I got this. It is titled Love and War. Well..i definitely see war. It is disfigured. Severely.











My point is this...everyone is special in their own way. That is why you have to seize every opportunity life hurls at you...cocurricullar activities...relationships...studies. You have to experiment with life because in truth, it is a gamble. Franky speaking that is. Bill Gates must be a very good gambler.